It wasn't planned

Everything happened so suddenly , that I was totally taken off guard... maybe things happen for a reason...six months went by so fast..and in that six months.. I have learnt many things.. and one thing for sure.. I never regret any decisions I have made... I need to let myself breathe for a little while.. breathing is good.. isn't it...?

I sent off my brother the other day... he's leaving for Ukraine again.. I hate those moments of partings... I hate goodbyes... why does everyone need to leave...? Most logically, and for obvious reasons of course... but I just choose not to comprehend...

I have encountered many different people as well as phases in my life.. sometimes I just feel too old for this world... and sometimes I have been called self-destructive... they have a point though..I will try not to dwell on the past too much and rather concentrate on my future..if any... what was Kurt Cobain's last words? Its better to burn out, than fade away? Correct me if I'm mistaken. Good point. Maybe I was afraid before, but I'm not afraid anymore.

To do the things I love - would probably be the best damned thing that would ever happen to me.. but some many voices from all sort of directions.. telling me what I should do... wtf..? Hmm... to listen is a good thing.. but sometimes not listening will also do some good...

I choose not to listen this time.